A morning devoid of inspiration, which leads me to wonder what might in fact inspire me.
I think of a cabin I once visited on weekends at the Russian River, on Cazadero Creek, with sunlight coming dappled through the redwoods and the water slow, purling (or even pearling), green as I remember it, offering quiet advice. One particular morning I could hear Beethoven’s Emperor Concerto coming from the cabin across the creek through an open window or door; I absorbed it utterly, like an eager sponge, and was quite prefectly happy—until I was interrupted, disturbed.
I think that’s what I need now, more than anything: clarity of mind, which is only going to come from quiet, solitary actions. Avoiding the disturbances. Walking in the woods (such as they are here); finding a little chuckling stream or maybe fountain; letting the confusion of work and obligations and unwanted distractions settle, the muddy thoughts clear. A week at Tassajara would be perfect, or a week on the long-lost Mallorcan hilltop swathed in olives and aleppo pine.
But if retreat isn’t possible, I guess the only answer is a strategic advance. Walking this muddled mood out; leaving this troubled inner place behind, to arrive at another. Music too might help. Something as lucid as the Emperor Concerto or sunny as Mozart. The water-glimmer of a piano.
image: Gustav Klimt, The Park of Schloss Kammer
I wouldn't really call what you wrote "uninspired"!
ReplyDeleteLately, music has been a major source of inspiration for me, stirring emotions which were a hair away from breaking out.
Hope you find a way to retire for a day to the nice place you described.
Thanks, Jay. Music's wondrous! Kind of a mini-retreat, when it's not possible to physically go elsewhere. Enjoy yours too.
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