Saturday, March 11, 2017

A Great Mess


I've bought boneless trout, and sage, and new potatoes for two recipes in Proven├žal Light, spring dinner.  And in the meantime we are clearing shelves, braving archaeological layers of dust, to pack and move in May to Santa Cruz (voted the third happiest city, where I ought to fit right in).

More soul-searching, as I weed out what goes and what stays, and trace back reasons why, the day or year when, who it's made me, all of it together, whatever I have turned out to be.  (A hoarder certainly!  Both hunter after pieces of myself out in the world, and gatherer back in to me.)

Weeding is flowering, I write, procrastinating as ever among the words.  (Charmed I think by my laptop because it's all so light, almost invisible, the whole card house that's on it tucked away each day again so effortlessly and neatly.)  Unloosed from tangled roots, moldering leaves, I bloom.  Like the exhilerant apricot trees in the orchard outside the library, popped suddenly like Sunday popcorn into brilliant white profusion.

My life, I write, denying the reality of dust and unattractive this and that and always the other, is colors, spices, books—from Amaranth to Zaffre (obtained by roasting cobalt ore); from Aleppo Pepper to Za'atar; from Archimedes, The Sand Reckoner to my tattered old copy of Zorba the Greek; neatly arranged (I say ironically) in perfect alphabetic order.

In fact life is a melange, a menage, a great mess that is often as not delightful.





image:  Christie B. Cochrell, Glass Beads