Friday, February 27, 2015

Friday Calm: Gratitude



What I’m grateful for today:
  • the blossoming fruit trees
  • a gift of coffee beans
  • the promises of Friday
  • al fresco cocktails with coworkers
  • my lambswool sweater
  • favorite comfy jeans
  • aromatic wood lotion
  • walnut flaxseed bread with white Vermont cheddar
  • my old Thesaurus
  • batik bag to hold my edited pages
  • rosemary
  • wooden benches dappled with sun
  • John O’Conor’s piano recordings
  • a free weekend
  • my healed heel
  • my hooded bathrobe
  • getting the griping out of my system
  • junkos
  • Gaston de La Touche
  • everything calm, calming, calmed 




image:   Pardon Breton, Gaston de La Touche

Sunday, February 22, 2015

The Fine Line



It occurs to me to consider the fine line
  • between patience and procrastination
  • between enthusiasm (or great love) and obsession
  • between calm and lethargy
  • between hunger and gluttony
  • between content and discontent

between so many things.

I see us all carefully balanced there, like tightrope walkers (Elvira Madigan, walking to Mozart’s lovely music, before coming to her desperate end).

Or, like my other favorite image of the moment’s chancy hesitation there on the fine line, Rodin’s amazing capture of the “Spirit of Eternal Repose,” the statue poised at the very angle of toppling, but somehow, just there, a fine line short of it, finding that perfect, precarious repose.




image:  Kelly Valentine

Monday, February 16, 2015

Fortunes and Friars



Looking for fragility, I come across fortunes, and friars, and fragrance, and fou—remembering while turning pages of the Oxford Dictionary of Quotations just why searching books is far more satisfying than the Internet.

And in the end I find the perfect quote from Shakespeare to accompany the picture above, which I immediately fell in love with.
“…nature’s fragile vessel doth sustainIn life’s uncertain voyage.”
(from Timon of Athens)
And in the meantime I’m baking walnut and flaxseed bread in a bright yellow Dutch oven borrowed from a friend.  I’m trying the no-knead variety, the rising dough smelling like yeast and Cretan thyme honey and abundance all night, rising in the only warm room we have, off by my mother’s rocking chair and a tangle of slippers, while we were sleeping and dreaming of the afternoon’s Mozart.

In life’s uncertain voyage all these things are sails filling with wind and sky, and I’m intensely grateful.





Saturday, February 14, 2015

To My Valentine



“But I love your feet
only because they walked
upon the earth and upon
the wind and upon the waters,
until they found me.”
—Pablo Neruda



image:   Paul Sérusier (French; Post-Impressionism, Les Nabis, 1863-1927): Mignonne Allons Voir si la Rose, 1910.

Thursday, February 12, 2015

You've Got Mail



The sun is out, and Valentine’s Day nears, and I’m thinking of letters waiting in all kinds of mailboxes around the world.  And other missives—postcards, royalty checks, pictures of new babies, hesitant declarations of love.  Of longing and absence and joy, at any age.

The images that come to mind are
  • mailboxes shouldered along a country road in Nambe or Tesuque
  • the pig-pink mailbox in the heart of Kona coffee country
  • these turquoise mailboxes on Canyon Road outside an artist’s studio (and just a block or two away from the low-ceilinged restaurant and bar with the smouldering flamenco guitar)
  • the mailboxes at the end of Thendara Lane, under the pines and a thicket of oleander, in these hills where everyone has come from somewhere else and writes to and about home in those distant places





image:  Christie B. Cochrell, Canyon Road Mailboxes

Saturday, February 7, 2015

Giving Way





The first picture I saw this morning was taken at Hovenweep, six prehistoric villages on the border of Colorado and Utah, and showed the “the moon giving way to the morning sun.”

In my sleepy state, on the border of dreaming and waking, before my decaf Sumatra and warm croissant with olallieberry preserves, I started wondering about the idea of giving way—my dreamy morning hours giving way to rain and midday obligations, winter beginning to give way to spring, and everywhere, examples of this continuity which makes up life.

The meaning of it, giving way, is ceding, passing the baton or the torch, letting the other have its turn.

But beyond that, giving way is allowing passage, enabling a journey, leading to or even carrying.  The stairs give way.  A train gives way, as does a horse, a mule descending the Pololu Valley, or a donkey climbing the steep rise of Santorini with its sheer white cliffs.  A wheelchair, graciously, gives way to those whose only way is that.

And in a further sense of that, the spritual, it’s causing or inspiring a creative path.  Claude Monet wrote “I perhaps owe having become a painter to flowers.”  The flowers by their very nature gave way to Monet’s paintings of them, which in turn give way to the viewer’s pleasure, sharing the flowers.

The meaning of that first moon and sun “giving way” is yielding, but that, too, has several sides.  Yielding as in letting someone else go ahead of you, as in losing yourself to temptation (both implying a kind of lessening of self, a ceding of one’s place in the landscape or moral world); but also as in producing—offering—yielding fruit or flowers or some other rich and generous bounty.  Giving of yourself to others, to the world, with natural and voluntary grace.  Not losing anything, but gaining everything.

Finally, the giving way reminds me of the Navajo Blessing Way and Beauty Way, another way of healing and of finding harmony.


image:  Christie B. Cochrell, Stairs (York)

Wednesday, January 28, 2015

Snowy Places I Would Rather Be



Every so often I miss snow—miss, for instance, walking in a nice slow snowfall on Christmas Eve (those big wet flakes that melt as soon as they touch earth) on Canyon Road with all the farolitos and the smoky piñon bonfires with carolers gathered around, and hot cider with sticks of cinnamon.  Or trudging in good boots through three inches or so on Boston Common, on the way to the map room in Boston Public Library, or to cozy Tealuxe (in the old days) for a small pot of Victorian Rose or Monks Blend tea.  Or romping with a dog in deep powder.  Or waking in the night and knowing right away it’s snowed, seeing the light of a heavy snowfall seeping through the curtains.  Or seeing it painting the distant New Mexico mountains, or the Italian Alps.

The fun is being someplace snug during or after snow, having the tea and maps and fireplace and reading lamp and quilt and dried-off dog to offer contrast.  Eating porcini in the Roman town at the foot of the Alps, or standing in the late December sun watching the Deer and Buffalo Dances in the reddish foothills under the Sangre de Cristos—admiring the snow from afar.

That’s why I used to ski, too—for the enormous pleasure of removing those punitive boots after, and having earned the right to sit with my stockingfeet up, by the fire, and drink hot-buttered rum or creamy chocolate, and not move.  (And then go home for a hot bubblebath and Star Trek.)

Snowmelt is a favorite concept of mine, the water born of snow, carried by aqueducts or little riverbeds; and nothing seems so hopeful as a crocus or other spring flower poking its pretty nose up from a patch of old snow.  One of my touchstone moments is, always, the ninth-grade spring our art class walked up the canyon on a surface of old, packed snow to look for red clay to shape into pots or the figures of gods.



Sunday, January 25, 2015

Old Roses, Birds, or Bells?



If I decide to self-publish some books, according to the lessons of yesterday’s class, one of the first things I will need to do is come up with a name for my press that lets the world know what I am and what I write.  At the moment my favorite thoughts are Tortuga, Bel Canto, Euphoria, Dog Star, or Cottonwood; birds:  Kestrel, Egret, Sandpiper, or Junco; colors:  Cerulean, Viridian, or Terracotta; old garden roses:  Alba, Gallica, Eglantine, or Rosa Mundi; Calliope (the muse) or Blue Iris (the flower); New Mexican memories:  Acequia, Abeyta, Blue Corn, Tsankawi, Petroglyph, or Piñon; Sage or Crabapple; Estuary or Oxbow; Andante or Adagio.  Or further bells (playing with my middle name):  Carillon, Belltower, Bluebell, Bellagio, Campanile.  These could all be Press or Publishing or Books, though preferably Press in most cases.

I can tell this venture is stalled already!  This is only step #1, and the fun part . . .




image:  Arti et Veritati, Mary Hazelton Blanchard Wade

Wednesday, January 21, 2015

Seven Steps Forward



  • get dressed (remember stripes are good)
  • open the windows to birdsong
  • laugh at the bleating of the goats
  • breathe in the lavender smell of the tea
  • read about the sandflower created by seismic waves
  • watch a fisherman untangling nets
  • open the last bottle of Fentiman’s Rose Lemonade




image:  Nefeli, Greece Art & Architecture

Tuesday, January 20, 2015

Malingering



Now I am malingering—lingering not in the true mal, the depths of the sickness itself, but reluctant to come out of that safe place of perfect excuses and not having to do anything but lie around and read, able to say to all unpleasant tasks and chores “Sorry, I’m sick—just go away!”  To put all shortcomings and failures, for the moment, firmly out of mind.

The place where kind neighbors bring bags of lemons from their trees for me, and I discover by some equal magic a jar of wild thyme honey from the mountains of Crete, forgotten for years in the far dim reaches of the pantry cupboard until I need it to brew my healing tea.  (There, too, are cedar planks for salmon; some most delightful bacon-flavored pasta sauce from Half Moon Bay; a box of strozzapreti from a shop that closed two years ago; three kinds of beans and six of spicy Indian vindaloos and tikka masalas and kormas; a can of kippers; Cream of Wheat; and an orange box of Uncle Ben’s rice.)

The place where I can wrap up warm and put on favorite socks and summon childhood spells to keep the world and its worries at bay—for just another day.




image:  Christie B. Cochrell, Unmade Bed